A veritable literary and cultural event from former XOJane.com beauty editor and “Amphetamine Logic” Vice columnist—the candid and darkly humorous memoir of her long-time love affair with psychoactive medications.
At twenty-six, Cat Marnell was an associate beauty editor at Lucky, one of the top fashion magazines in America. She looked the part. She wore a Dior slap bracelet, a yellow plastic Marni dress, and she carried a three thousand-dollar black patent leather Lanvin tote that her boss had plunked down on her desk one afternoon. Her highlights were by Marie Robinson at Sally Hershberger Salon in the Meatpacking District; she had a chic lavender pedicure, and she smelled expensive, like Colette Black Musk Oil.
But if you looked closer, you could see it: she was five feet four inches and only ninety-seven pounds. Her designer handbag was actually full of garbage and little orange plastic bottles; if you looked at her hands digging through it for them, you’d see that her fingernails were dirty, and one knuckle was split from scraping against her front teeth. Her self-tanner was uneven. Her under-eye bags were big enough to send down the runway at Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week. So even though she wrote articles about how to take care of yourself—your hair, your skin, your nails—she was falling apart. Eventually, she did. In a dizzying, downward, drug-induced spiral. How to Murder Your Life is Cat’s brash, intimate and, above all, honest account of her rise at Condé Nast and her spectacular fall into addiction.
All across America, women are using drugs. Cat Marnell is brave enough to tell the truth. She reveals what it’s like to live with addiction, how hard it is to resist, and why it feels so good to give in. Combining lightning-rod subject matter and bold literary aspirations, How to Murder Your Life is mesmerizing, revelatory, and necessary. Download and start listening now!