Notes on a Silencing: A Memoir Audiobook, by Lacy Crawford Play Audiobook Sample

Notes on a Silencing: A Memoir Audiobook

Notes on a Silencing: A Memoir Audiobook, by Lacy Crawford Play Audiobook Sample
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Read By: Lacy Crawford Publisher: Little, Brown & Company Listen Time: at 1.0x Speed 7.33 hours at 1.5x Speed 5.50 hours at 2.0x Speed Release Date: July 2020 Format: Unabridged Audiobook Delivery: Instant Download ISBN: 9781549147029

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Longest Chapter Length:

101:14 minutes

Shortest Chapter Length:

01:46 minutes

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39:08 minutes

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Publisher Description

A riveting, lucid memoir of a young woman's struggle to regain her sense of self after trauma, and the efforts by a powerful New England boarding school to silence her--at any cost

When the elite St. Paul's School recently came under state investigation after extensive reports of sexual abuse on campus, Lacy Crawford thought she'd put behind her the assault she'd suffered at St. Paul's decades before, when she was fifteen. Still, when detectives asked for victims to come forward, she sent a note.

Her criminal case file reopened, she saw for the first time evidence that corroborated her memories. Here were depictions of the naïve, hard-working girl she'd been, a chorister and debater, the daughter of a priest; of the two senior athletes who assaulted her and were allowed to graduate with awards; and of the faculty, doctors, and priests who had known about Crawford's assault and gone to great lengths to bury it.

Now a wife, mother, and writer living on the other side of the country, Crawford learned that police had uncovered astonishing proof of an institutional silencing years before, and that unnamed powers were still trying to block her case. The slander, innuendo, and lack of adult concern that Crawford had experienced as a student hadn't been imagined as the effects of trauma, after all: these were the actions of a school that prized its reputation above anything, even a child.

This revelation launched Crawford on an extraordinary inquiry into the ways gender, privilege, and power shaped her experience as a girl at the gates of America's elite. Her investigation looks beyond the sprawling playing fields and soaring chapel towers of crucibles of power like St. Paul's, whose reckoning is still to come. And it runs deep into the channels of shame and guilt, witness and silencing, that dictate who can speak and who is heard in American society.

An insightful, mature, beautifully written memoir, Notes on a Silencing is an arresting coming-of-age story that wrestles with an essential question for our time: what telling of a survivor's story will finally force a remedy?

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“Trenchant in its observations about the unspoken—and often criminal—double standards that adhere in elite spaces, Crawford’s courageous book is a bracing reminder of the dangers inherent in unchecked patriarchal power.”

— Kirkus Reviews 


  • “A riveting story of and for our time.”

    — Literary Hub
  • “Crawford carefully exposes the rotten underbelly of the school, whose administrators never reported her assault to police…A stirring memoir of sexual assault and its aftermath.”

    — Publishers Weekly
  • “So beautiful it hurts to read…Lacy Crawford has found courage to turn pain into searing voice in this beautiful memoir.”

    — Lorene Cary, author of Black Ice


  • A Time Magazine Pick of Summer Reading

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About Lacy Crawford

Lacy Crawford served for fifteen years as a highly discreet independent college admissions counselor to the children of powerful clients in cities such as New York, Chicago, Denver, San Francisco, Los Angeles, and London. Her “day jobs” included serving as senior editor at Narrative magazine and director of the Burberry Foundation. Educated at Princeton and the University of Chicago, she now lives in California with her husband and two children.