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Anthony Rapp captures the passion and grit unique to the theater world as he recounts his life-changing experience in the original cast of the Pulitzer Prize–winning musical Rent.

Anthony Rapp had a special feeling about Jonathan Larson’s rock musical Rent as early as his first audition, which won him a starring role as the video artist Mark Cohen. And when the show opened to thunderous acclaim off Broadway, Rapp knew that something truly extraordinary had taken shape. But even as people celebrated Rent’s success, they were also mourning the sudden death of Jonathan Larson, the show’s creator.

When Anthony’s mom began to lose her battle with cancer, he struggled to balance his theater career with his responsibility to his family. Here, Anthony recounts both the show’s huge success and his overwhelming loss. He also shares his experiences discovering his sexuality, the tension it created with his mother, and his struggle to gain her acceptance.

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Quotes & Awards

  • “Anthony Rapp has written a courageous, brutally honest memoir that breaks new ground in writing about the constantly changing arena of the American family experience.”

    Chris Columbus, director of the film adaptation of Rent

  • “No roar-of-the-crowd, smell-of-the-greasepaint scrapbook; it’s a sprawling tear-streaking life story and unabashedly sentimental ode to his mother…[Rapp’s] voice is unpretentious and unfailingly honest.”

    Entertainment Weekly

  • “Beautifully written…[Without You] shows that a life story truthfully told can be stranger (as well as more touching) than fiction.”

    New York Post

  • “The tragic, compelling backstory to Rent extends the book’s appeal far beyond the show’s fans.”

    Chicago Tribune

  • “Pitch-perfect…a book for everyone who has experienced great loss, [and] for anyone who has survived and grown because of that loss.”

    San Francisco Chronicle

  • “Absorbing, warm and hopeful, the book celebrates a man, his work and a generation struggling with AIDS but determined to survive.”

    Publishers Weekly

  • “[Rapp] delves deeply, with real emotion, into the making of a blockbuster show, providing details that any show-biz buff will adore…the climax is a tearjerker.”


  • “Rapp here makes an impressive debut as a writer, bringing a keen actor’s sense of detail, timing, and pathos to the page…Writing with painful sensitivity…he reaches a deep, affecting level of personal expression. A hit.”

    Kirkus Reviews (starred review)

  • “Heartbreakingly beautiful, a contemporary portrait of an artist as a young man.”

    David Román, professor of English and American studies,University of Southern California

Listener Opinions

  • 5 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 5 by Sanmi | 2/19/2014

    " I loved this book, very honest and intriguing. "

  • 4 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 5 by Shaun Rice | 2/18/2014

    " This book was a brithday present - and I really enjoyed reading it. It has lots of very heartbreaking moments (lets just say I was all teary in the middle of the cafe downstairs of my work....) At times it seems repetative, the same events happening over and over and over - but its a book that tells the story of losing a loved one - and the actions you go through are very repetative. All in all it was a great read. The story of Rent coming into being is only a throughline - and only because the timelines overlap with what was happening in his personal life. So if you are not a theatre person or not a fan of the show, you will still enjoy this autobiography. Enjoy! "

  • 4 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 5 by Christopher Lee | 2/17/2014

    " A story of how the broadway show RENT was written. It is narrorated in the situation of one of the performers. The book shows how the writer died at a close moment to their first performance and how tough it was to pull through the whole situation without crying. "

  • 5 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 5 by Kym | 1/24/2014

    " A must read for any Renthead! "

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About the Author
Author Anthony Rapp

Anthony Rapp has been acting professionally since he was nine years old. He is best known for originating the role of Mark Cohen in the Pulitzer Prize-winning rock opera Rent. He lives in New York City.