Hannah Shah is an Imam's daughter. She lived the life of a devout Muslim in a family of Pakistani Muslims in England, but behind the front door, she was a caged butterfly.
For many years, her father abused her in the cellar of their home. At sixteen, she discovered a plan to send her to Pakistan for an arranged marriage, and she gathered the courage to run away. Relentlessly hunted by her angry father and brothers, who were intent on executing an "honor" killing, she moved from house to house in perpetual fear to escape them. Over time, she converted to Christianity and was able to live and marry as she wished.
Hannah found the courage to live her life free from shame, free from religious intolerance, and free from the abuse that haunted her childhood. This is a remarkable true story of how a young girl escaped a life of torture . . . a story you won't forget.
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"Family is the greatest asset to a person, it comes as a warmth for a mother, affection of a father,togetherness of siblings , and its through a family one perceives the world around..IWorld's shabbiness is given a shade of beauty by family's support and a beautiful shade is further magnified..What if the beginning itself slumbers??? What if the people who were meant to protect turn around ruining life, then your becomes something like Hannah's..Hannah is a Muslim and obviously this name doesn't resemble anything Muslim, original names are not used for the security reasons..Raised as a Muslim Hannah's life is nothing short of a whirlpool , like someone stuck in it she is unable to escape ..Hannah's father is an Imam who hates British calling them "Gorey" meaning white..She is abused and raped repeatedly by him and none in the family resist or call for help.. This is done for holding the honor of the family high..Everything is done in the name of family's honor..She points out one dig , that as per Muslim religion no actions are bad or wrong unless one is caught during the act, come on can you believe that?? I thought all religion discourages any such actions...Her neighbors ignore her cry., even her mother turns a blind eye on the bruises that she walks with, her mother is relieved from the fact that she has no longer to bear the physical assaults..In her desperation Hannah turns to a social worker for help and he in turn turns to her family , all that resulting into further sufferings..Her family sounds like a pack of evil than anything like a family, Her smiles watching a cartoon is retorted with hard treatment..Her mother tells her that she is not suppose to be happy, reading all this made me wish if they were only an exaggeration... One can not go on with all the horrendous actions of the family, its such a tormenting life to live by..She reaches her breaking when she happens to know about her arranged marriage to a Pakistani Muslim and her eventual shift from England..She escapes home, this time finding the right person, he not only helps her out but lets her stay at her home..The family drama continues as the Imam comes with other religious people crying for help..Her mother asks her to come back for the sake of family honour.. Come to think of it, the person who never bothered a string about her daughter had come with something like this...It would have been easy for anyone to collapse falling apart..I am in awe for this woman who faced things head on till she achieved peace..Adapting Christianity she is leading a life away from her parents in the hope to get that someday things would be better..This book would impel you to question many things,its an agonizing tale of a woman that would leave you dazed..."
— Vibina (5 out of 5 stars)
" This is the true story about a Pakistani Muslim girl growing up in Great Britain. Hannan Shah is probably one of the bravest young women I know and all the more so because of her Muslim background. She grew up in a household where her father, the spiritual leader of the community, begins raping and beating her in the basement at the tender age of 5, and continues to do so until she runs away from home at the age of 16. She meets up with a network of British families who hide her to prevent her father from shipping her off to Pakistan to marry a man she has never met. During her journey, she converts to the Christian faith and in so doing, her father rouses up an angry mob of about 40 male relatives and neighbors to try to hunt her down and do an "honor killing", which is sanctioned in the Pakistani community. For 6 years, she moves from place to place, trying to find shelter and still try to get a college education. During this time, she goes on short-term mission trips to India and Greece, finds psychological healing for her PSTD (post-traumatic stress disorder) and then becomes a highly sought-after public speaker in Great Britain to enlighten the government to the human rights abuses in the Muslim Pakistani community within Great Britain's own borders. This is much more than a Christian biography...it is about a young girl's emancipation from a highly abusive environment, the courage to escape from an unacceptable life and embrace the freedom to be who she wants to be and believe what she wants to believe. It is also a story about a clash of cultures: what if a Muslim family thinks it's okay to abduct a girl out of the host country against her will and force her to marry when she is under legal age? Very inspiring story and highly recommended. "
— Lonely, 1/18/2014" Hannah Shah recounts her troubled upbringing within the Muslim faith and her extremely strict and disturbing family. This book is very unsettling most of the way through...hope and true love does prevail! "
— Karen, 12/27/2013" One of the deepest books I ever read. A must read. "
— Rhina, 12/17/2013" I could not put this book down ...it's a quick read and because it's a true story it's a hard one to accept as well. Enjoyed it and the hope that it gives in having a personal relationship with Jesus. "
— Kathy, 12/16/2013" So many levels of religious freedom and beliefs was illustrated in the story - i loved it "
— Roshika, 12/1/2013" basic, pitying and stone age all right there in Birmingham! "
— Victoire, 11/20/2013" Very easy read, sad ,but yet a wonderful ending to a tragic begining. "
— Michelle, 11/14/2013" very hurtful and unforgettable memory "
— Eleni, 11/11/2013" Hannah is an excellent writer. her story I believe opened a lot of people's eyes. This is a story that is infuriating, yet inspiring "
— Chanel, 11/3/2013" Both touching and informative inside view of Islam. "
— Ruth, 11/2/2013" Learned a lot about what it is like to be a Pakistani Muslim in England. I loved her journey from being the daughter of an abuser to a beloved child of God through faith in Jesus Christ. "
— Sandy, 9/27/2013" A very strong and real story about a little girl's journey from her home to freedom. The book illustrated how the various teachings that religion teaches (any religion for that fact) is only incorporated in word and not in spirit ..Very brave for the author to come out with this "
— Priya, 3/9/2013" This is an amazing, terrifying, enlightening tale of one's true horror and the many year steps to overcome something few could have overcame. Inspiring, heart-breaking, life enriching. "
— Kristenia, 1/21/2013" It's a terrifying stories ... "
— Baniza, 7/16/2012" The abuse described is horrific. But it's a very interesting read about an amazingly strong woman. "
— Carmen, 3/30/2012" It is unbelievable, that something like this exists in modern society and developed country. People should get known about this. I will never understand behavior of such communities. Violence cannot be excused be religion. "
— Coccinelle, 10/27/2011" A fascinating book. A sad life. The true story of an Imam's daughter - a devout Pakistani Muslim's family life in England. Hard to read as there was a lot of abuse by the Imam (father). "
— Kdesoto, 6/20/2011" A raw glimpse into the world of domestic violence and child abuse perpetrated by men who call themselves "Muslims". I was enraged at the father and sympathetic towards the girl and grateful for the people who saved her. I understand why she converted to Christianity and don't blame her. "
— Abdulf, 5/31/2011" this book really took me in to a world of fear,hopelessness and a bright rainbow after a hurricane..!! "
— Areeba, 3/18/2011" Both touching and informative inside view of Islam. "
— Ruth, 2/6/2011" A fascinating book. A sad life. The true story of an Imam's daughter - a devout Pakistani Muslim's family life in England. Hard to read as there was a lot of abuse by the Imam (father). "
— Kdesoto, 1/25/2011" I could not put this book down ...it's a quick read and because it's a true story it's a hard one to accept as well. Enjoyed it and the hope that it gives in having a personal relationship with Jesus. "
— Kathy, 1/15/2011" Very easy read, sad ,but yet a wonderful ending to a tragic begining. "
— Michelle, 12/28/2010" Hannah Shah recounts her troubled upbringing within the Muslim faith and her extremely strict and disturbing family. This book is very unsettling most of the way through...hope and true love does prevail! "
— Karen, 8/15/2010" This is an incredibly poignant true story about a girl who grew up Pakistani Muslim in the UK and then found Christ. "
— Ruth, 7/17/2010" This is an amazing, terrifying, enlightening tale of one's true horror and the many year steps to overcome something few could have overcame. Inspiring, heart-breaking, life enriching. "
— Kristenia, 5/17/2010Christine Rendel is a British-born award-winning audiobook narrator and producer and actor living in New York. She has narrated over sixty fiction and nonfiction books for major and independent publishers, and maintains a professional home studio on the bucolic north fork of eastern Long Island. She is the SOVAS Voice Arts Award winner 2020 for Classics Narration.