With elegance and unsparing honesty, special correspondent for The Times of London, Anthony Loyd records this harrowing account of modern war. My War Gone By, I Miss It So exposes the unspeakable terror, visceral thrill of combat, and countless lives laid waste in Europe's bloodiest conflict since World War II. Unsatisfied by a brief stint in the British army and driven by the despair of drug dependence, the author was searching for excitement when he set out for Bosnia in 1993. Nothing prepared him for the brutal life-and-death struggle he discovers there among the Serbs, Croatians, and Bosnian Muslims. As he writes of the shocking chaos, he finds a chilling purpose to his life as a journalist. Anthony Loyd has become an award-winning international reporter whose work is compared to the classics of war literature. With this powerful book, he takes an uncompromising look at the horrifying savagery and seductive power of war. British actor Steven Crossley masterfully conjures up the sights, smells, and sounds of a country being torn apart.
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"Probably the best and most honest account by a war correspondent in recent years. Loyd doesn't pull any punches yet is never judgemental of those around him in this very enlightening retelling of his experience in the Balkans wars of the '90s. His straight-from-the-heart illustration of his own addictions to both the war-front and heroin use deserve high praise. Antony Loyd is a writer of whom greater recognition is warranted."
— Paul (5 out of 5 stars)
" Really good read which is both a coming of age story of sorts of Anthony Loyd as well as a personal and different perspective on the Bosnian war than you would get from other journalists that were there at the time. "
— E, 4/27/2020" The setting fades to irrelevancy as we see the stark parallels drawn between actual war and the ones we create for ourselves in our everyday lives and suggests a deeper human need for action or drama or thanatos than can't be delivered by civilized domesticity. "
— Wendy, 2/14/2014" A raw, honest look at war reporting, and what drives some to it. "
— Carrie, 2/8/2014" Compelling. That's the only word for it. "
— Huma, 1/22/2014" Completely raw and emotionally engaged and present. Highly recommended. Trigger warnings for absolutely everything. "
— Emily, 1/19/2014" This book nearly exclusively informed the character of Leith, a war photographer in my forthcoming novel The Weeds Within. The book is a must of truth and verity about the psychological effect of war on those who witness without being able to change anything about what they see. "
— Marella, 1/17/2014" One of the best and most interesting books I've read, written by a combat photojournalist. Interesting insight into the wars that accompanied the break-up of Yugoslavia in the 1990's. "
— Peter, 12/27/2013" A hard book - harrowing and horrific, both in its depiction of war and in what it shows of an adrenaline-junkie's addiction to chaos. "
— Will, 12/18/2013" Sure, Anthony Loyd comes off like a complete asshole, but that's part of what makes this book so good. "
— Robert, 12/16/2013" A haunting memoir into warfare and the human soul. A riveting book whose mental images stay with you long after you've read it. "
— Ryan, 12/1/2013" A memorable memoir about the war in the former Yugoslavia that also teaches the reader about the conflict there. Some of the scenes still stay with me years after reading it. "
— Jennifer, 10/12/2013" Exquisite writing about a painful subject (civil war in Yugoslavia). One of the best written books in my library. The personal flavor as opposed to a fact-driven overview is what brings this book to life. Well worth a read. "
— Nadir, 10/7/2013" I'm pretty sure this is my favorite book. The theme of destruction that intertwines his body (by heroin) with the countries in which he's reporting (by war) is disheartening, to say the least. Do not, under any circumstances, read this book when you're depressed. "
— Peter, 6/24/2013" In the top 3 I've ever read on war. Most honesty regarding "War Tourism" and our infatuation with the suffering of others. "
— Mark, 5/12/2013" Really enjoyed this book, despite its somewhat jumpy narrative and the smacked-out interludes in cursive. "
— Zachary, 3/2/2013" The best war memoir you'll ever read. "
— Bean, 10/6/2012" "a highly disturbing account of one man's view of war and his coinciding drug addiction. the visuals reaped when reading this are horrific, yet it's like a train wreck at which you can't stop staring." "
— Michelle, 7/16/2012" This journalist goes right on the front lines in the Bosnian war. I learned a lot that I never really knew about that war...interesting read. "
— Jake, 6/22/2012" Problematic portrayal of the Serbo-Croatian wars in the 90s, at best, but all the same I couldn't put it down. And the title is great. "
— Charitianne, 12/13/2011" Was just remembering this book, yet again. What is so compelling about pain and horror? "
— Sara, 12/12/2011Steven Crossley, a graduate of the Royal Academy of Dramatic Art in London, has built a career on both sides of the Atlantic as an actor and audiobook narrator, for which he has won more than a dozen AudioFile Earphones Awards and been a nominee for the prestigious Audie Award. He is a member of the internationally renowned theater company Complicite and has appeared in numerous theater, television, film, and radio dramas.