He walks with me through every day of my life, in that
unsteady, faltering gait that so embarrassed me when I was a boy. Always, he is
holding fast to the upper part of my right arm…As we make our way together, my
father—I called him Daddy when I was small, because it sounded American and
that is how he so desperately wanted things to seem—is speaking in the
idiosyncratic rhythms of a self-constructed English.
So Sherwin Nuland introduces Meyer Nudelman, his father, a
man whose presence continues to haunt Nuland to this day. Meyer Nudelman came
to America from Russia at the turn of the twentieth century, when he was
nineteen. Pursuing the immigrant’s dream of a better life but finding the
opposite, he lived an endless round of frustration, despair, anger, and loss:
overwhelmed by the premature deaths of his first son and wife; his oldest
surviving son disabled by rheumatic fever in his teens; his youngest son,
Sherwin, dutiful but defiant, caring for him as his life, beset by illness and
fierce bitterness, wound to its unalterable end.
Lost in America,
Nuland’s harrowing and empathetic account of his father’s life, is equally
revealing about the author himself. We see what it cost him to admit the
inextricable ties between father and son and to accept the burden of his father’s
In Lost in America,
Sherwin Nuland has written a memoir at once timeless and universal. Download and start listening now!