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3 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 5 3.00 (3,863 ratings) (rate this audio book) Author: Janine Latus Narrator: Shelly Frasier Publisher: Tantor Format: Unabridged Audiobook Delivery: Instant Download Audio Length: Release Date:
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In April 2002, Janine Latus's youngest sister, Amy, wrote a note and taped it to the inside of her desk drawer. "Today Ron Ball and I are romantically involved," it read, "but I fear I have placed myself at risk in a variety of ways. Based on his criminal past, writing this out just seems like the smart thing to do. If I am missing or dead this obviously has not protected me..." That same spring, Janine Latus was struggling to leave her marriage-a marriage to a handsome and successful man. A marriage others emulated. A marriage in which she felt she could do nothing right and everything wrong. A marriage in which she felt afraid, controlled, inadequate, and trapped. Ten weeks later, Janine Latus had left her marriage. She was on a business trip to the East Coast, savoring her freedom, attending a work conference, when she received a call from her sister Jane asking if she'd heard from Amy. Immediately, Janine's blood ran cold. Amy was missing. Helicopters went up and search dogs went out. Coworkers and neighbors and family members plastered missing posters with Amy's picture across the county. It took more than two weeks to find Amy's body, wrapped in a tarpaulin and buried at a building site. It took nearly two years before her killer, her former boyfriend Ron Ball, was sentenced for her murder. Amy died in silent fear and pain. Haunted by this, Janine Latus turned her journalistic eye inward. How, she wondered, did two seemingly well-adjusted, successful women end up in strings of physically or emotionally abusive relationships with men? If I Am Missing or Dead is a heart-wrenching journey of discovery as Janine Latus traces the roots of her own-and her sister's-victimization with unflinching candor. This beautifully written memoir will move readers from the first to the last page. At once a confession, a call to break the cycle of abuse, and a deeply felt love letter to her baby sister, Amy Lynne Latus, If I Am Missing or Dead is an unforgettable read. Download and start listening now!


Quotes & Awards

  • “Unforgettable, unsentimental, and profoundly affecting, Latus’s book resonates long after the final page is turned.”

    Publishers Weekly (starred review)

  • An honest, unsparing look a the deadly erosion of self-worth. Kirkus Starred Review
  • “An honest, unsparing look a the deadly erosion of self-worth.”

    Kirkus Reviews (starred review)

  • “[Frasier’s] performance is natural and believable.”


Listener Opinions

  • 3 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 5 by Stefanie | 2/20/2014

    " I read this book in less than 24 hours...could not put it down. It was a hard book to read...but a riveting true story of two sisters in relationships with bad men. This was a different book than I thought it would be from reading the jacket...the book was really more about the author and her awful, horrible bad relationships with men. That and in tandem, what she knew about her sister's relationships--equally horrible, tragic and in the end fatal. "

  • 5 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 5 by Kristina | 2/19/2014

    " Great book! couldn't put it down "

  • 4 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 5 by Dawn | 2/15/2014

    " While the title tells you it is not a happy ending, it is a great story. the self discovery of one woman and the love between two sisters is endearing, something not lost on anyone who reads this. I highly recommend this. "

  • 1 out of 51 out of 51 out of 51 out of 51 out of 5 by Jamie | 2/13/2014

    " Meh. I like a good true crime read, and although this delivered, I didn't like the way the author told the story. The story was technically about her sister, but the author wrote 70% about her own abusive relationship and what she was going through. Although it was relevant to the story, I thought I was going to read more about her sister's story. Obviously, with the sister dead she couldn't have told her own story, but I don't know -- I still felt like the author did a poor job of telling her sister's life story. Also, I remained bitter when the author attacked her sister's weight. I'm very sensitive to that issue in life, but I felt like she was acting holier-than-thou about her ability to manage her weight and her sister's inability to manage her's. I didn't appreciate the way she approached it. As usual, weight is an easy target - even if you're dead. So, there are my thoughts. I gave it a solid 2 stars. "

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