"Here is my disconnect: the private and public self. My mind and body. The real person and curated spectacle. . . . Are there actual roots with which to fasten this performance to anything real?"
As a transnational and transracial adoptee, Jenny Heijun Wills has spent her life navigating the fraught spaces of ethnicity and belonging. As a pan-polyam individual, she lives between types of family—adopted, biological, chosen—and "community"; heternormativity and queerness; commitment and a constellation of love. And as a parent with a lifelong eating disorder, who self-harms to cope with mental illness, her love language is to feed, but daily she wishes her body would disappear. These facets of Wills' being have served as the anchors she once clung to and the harsh parameters of what others now imagine she can be.
Everything and Nothing At All weaves together a lifetime of literary criticism, cultural study, and a personal history into a staggering tapestry of knowledge. And though the experiences of accumulating this knowledge have often been shot through with pain, Wills spins these threads into priceless gold—a radical, fearless vision of kinship and family. Devastating, illuminating, and beautifully crafted, these essays breathe life into the ambiguities and excesses of Wills' self, transforming them into something more—something that could be everything.
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With radical candor, aching beauty, and intellectual urgency, Everything and Nothing At All is a necessary masterclass in how a person can survive in spaces where one is both a conundrum and paradox, someone of multifaceted identities, navigating axes of want and need, and intricate configurations of self-love, belonging, visibility, and self-care. Jenny Heijun Wills is a virtuoso who performs a dazzling arrangement of personal history, rich cultural commentary, and probing literary criticism with staggering emotion and razor-sharp analysis. In my opinion, Wills is one of the most incisive thinkers and writers in Canada today. A formidable tour de force by a fiercely brilliant mind; this is a collection that is structurally inventive in form and exquisite in its telling.
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Lindsay Wong, author of Tell Me Pleasant Things about ImmortalityUnforgettable—a startling and visceral read. In Everything and Nothing At All, Jenny Heijun Wills leads us through the bright, cool antechambers of her mind to dissect, via the lens of her own experience, the fundamentals of life itself. In prose that is searing, exacting and beautiful, Wills bends time to examine what it means—and how it feels—to be seen, unseen, wanted, unwanted, loved and unloved. This book is sharp and it is living, and it is an essential and urgent document in a world still very much trying to know itself.