“If you could read my mind, you wouldn’t be smiling.”
Samantha McAllister looks just like the rest of the popular girls in her junior class. But hidden beneath the straightened hair and expertly applied makeup is a secret that her friends would never understand: Sam has purely obsessional OCD and is consumed by a stream of dark thoughts and worries that she can’t turn off.
Second-guessing every move, thought, and word makes daily life a struggle, and it doesn’t help that her lifelong friends will turn toxic at the first sign of a wrong outfit, wrong lunch, or wrong crush. Yet Sam knows she’d be truly crazy to leave the protection of the most popular girls in school. So when Sam meets Caroline, she has to keep her new friend with a refreshing sense of humor and no style a secret, right up there with Sam’s weekly visits to her psychiatrist.
Caroline introduces Sam to the Poet’s Corner, a hidden room and a tight-knit group of misfits who have been ignored by the school at large. Sam is drawn to them immediately, especially a guitar-playing guy with a talent for verse, and starts to discover a whole new side of herself. Slowly, she begins to feel more “normal” than she ever has as part of the popular crowd … until she finds a new reason to question her sanity and all she holds dear.
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“Amy Rubinate invites listeners to enter the inner and outer worlds of sixteen-year-old Samantha McAllister. Rubinate conveys Sam’s anxiety as she curries favor with a clique-ish set of friends and their mean-girl leader. She dramatizes Sam’s inner struggles as she hides her compulsive behaviors…Rubinate’s characterizations and a surprising ending enhance this story.”
— AudioFile
“Stone delves into the mind of an obsessive-compulsive teenager to explore how her mental disorder affects her relationships and interactions with the world…The story’s surprising climax will keep readers on the edge of their seats.”
— Publishers Weekly“Approached in a very respectful and informative manner, this story of coming to terms with a difficult diagnoses and being less than normal is in no way didactic…The climax and resolution are resounding enough to rise above any shadows of doubt.”
— School Library Journal“This tender novel shows how powerful and helpful the brain can be under stress without being clinical or detached…This book is highly recommended—readers will connect with Sam, relating to her anxiety about her peers, and root for her throughout the book.”
— VOYA“Sam is an endearing protagonist readers will find familiar and enjoy rooting for…Clueless meets Dead Poets Society with a whopping final twist.”
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Tamara Ireland Stone is the author of Time Between Us. She currently works in the field of marketing communications and enjoys skiing, hiking, and spending time with her husband, son, and daughter. She and her family live in the San Francisco area.
Amy Rubinate has narrated over 250 audiobooks and won multiple AudioFile Earphones Awards. Her books have been selected for AudioFile’s Best Romance of 2016 list; Booklist’s Top 10 Romance, Top 10 Historical Fiction, Editor’s Choice Media; and YALSA’s Amazing Audiobooks for Young Adults. She has a degree in oral interpretation of literature and won state and national awards for poetry reading. A voice actor and singer for over a decade, Amy has narrated many interactive children’s books and provided character voices for toys and video games. Amy’s work has been featured in the New York Times, the San Francisco Chronicle, AudioFile magazine, Publishers Weekly, Booklist, and Library Journal.