An eloquent, restless, and enlightening memoir by one of the most thought-provoking journalists today about growing up Black and queer in America, reuniting with the past, and coming of age their own way.
One of nineteen children in a blended family, Hari Ziyad was raised by a Hindu Hare Kṛṣṇa mother and a Muslim father. Through reframing their own coming-of-age story, Ziyad takes readers on a powerful journey of growing up queer and Black in Cleveland, Ohio, and of navigating the equally complex path toward finding their true self in New York City. Exploring childhood, gender, race, and the trust that is built, broken, and repaired through generations, Ziyad investigates what it means to live beyond the limited narratives Black children are given and challenges the irreconcilable binaries that restrict them.
Heartwarming and heart-wrenching, radical and reflective, Hari Ziyad’s vital memoir is for the outcast, the unheard, the unborn, and the dead. It offers us a new way to think about survival and the necessary disruption of social norms. It looks back in tenderness as well as justified rage, forces us to address where we are now, and, born out of hope, illuminates the possibilities for the future.
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“Narrator Desean Terry gives an intimate and emotional performance of this beautiful memoir in essays…Terry’s tone is soft and gentle, reflecting the person Ziyad has become…Terry makes it easy to forget it’s not Ziyad themself narrating this honest story.”
— AudioFile
“A compelling and moving account exploring childhood, gender, identity, and race.”
— Cosmopolitan (UK)“The book hones in on ideas like prison abolition and racial disparities in healthcare.”
— Cleveland Plain Dealer“Offers readers a new script for pushing beyond racial and gender binaries.”
— Vogue“Ziyad’s beautifully written, genre-bending work transcends the memoir form and intimately showcases what it means to be Black and queer in America today.”
— Lambda Literary“This is a book to move us forward…If we want it to be better than the before, ideas and stories like Ziyad’s are crucial.”
— Seattle Times“An unflinchingly honest assessment of the ways in which the lives and experiences of Black children are devalued.”
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Hari Ziyad is a cultural critic, a screenwriter, and the editor in chief of RaceBaitr. They are a 2021 Lambda Literary Fellow, and their writing has been featured in BuzzFeed, Out, the London Guardian, Paste magazine, and the academic journal Critical Ethnic Studies, among other publications. Previously they were the managing editor of the Black Youth Project and a script consultant on the television series David Makes Man. For more information about the author, visit www.hariziyad.com.