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3 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 5 3.00 (5,212 ratings) (rate this audio book) Author: Josh Kilmer-Purcell Narrator: Johnny Heller Publisher: Tantor Format: Unabridged Audiobook Delivery: Instant Download Audio Length: Release Date:
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I Am Not Myself These Days follows a glittering journey through Manhattan’s dark underbelly—a shocking and surreal world where alter egos reign and subsist (barely) on dark wit and chemicals … a tragic romantic comedy where one begins by rooting for the survival of the relationship and ends by hoping someone simply survives.

Kilmer-Purcell is a terrifically gifted new literary voice who straddles the divide between absurdity and normalcy and stitches them together with surprising humor and lonely poignancy.

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Quotes & Awards

  • “[Listeners] will find this tale of good-boy-turned-bad-drag-queen darkly hilarious and entertaining.”

    Library Journal

  • “As tart and funny as a Noël Coward play.”


  • “A wonderful book, a ridiculous book, a sad and beautiful book, a book I’ll read again, a book I highly recommend.”

    James Frey, author of A Million Little Pieces

Listener Opinions

  • 3 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 5 by Valerie | 2/19/2014

    " Okay, so it's not great literature, but it is a wild read, a guilty pleasure, and if you love drag queens (as I seem to do), it is an absorbing voyeuristic journey through the dark side of that life. It gets a little sordid/squalid midway through, but the beginning and end are worth it. "

  • 2 out of 52 out of 52 out of 52 out of 52 out of 5 by Amanda King | 2/17/2014

    " I love the Fabulous Beekman Boys, and I wanted to love this book. It just wasn't very well written. "

  • 5 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 5 by Maggie Rutledge | 2/14/2014

    " I loved this book. I love Josh's writing style and sense of humor. I fell in love with him in this book and totally think he should be my best friend. "

  • 5 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 5 by Niki Smart | 2/7/2014

    " Loved this book. Loved every page and couldn't stop reading. I knew nothing about drag queens or paid prostitution, so this book opened up a weirdly fascinating, beyond bizarre world for me. And Kilmer-Purcell presents this craziness that is his life, in a most hilarious manner. The Candy Man scene (I don't want to give anything away, so that's all you're getting) has to be one of my all time favorite scenes to date. I laughed so hard I think I lost weight. Thank you Josh for sharing yourself with us. "

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About the Author
Author Josh Kilmer-Purcell

Josh Kilmer-Purcell is the bestselling author of the memoir I Am Not Myself These Days and the novel Candy Everybody Wants, and the star of Planet Green’s documentary television series The Fabulous Beekman Boys. He and his partner, Brent Ridge, divide their time between Manhattan and the Beekman Farm.