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A Seventeen Best Book of the Year
A New York Public Library Top Ten Best Book of the Year
A Kirkus Best Book of the Year
For fans of All the Bright Places, Looking for Alaska, and I'll Give You the Sun comes "a daring, inventive story about love and loss and longing, reminding us that every choice can be a new chance. A dazzling, not-to-be-missed debut." —Kathleen Glasgow, author of Girl in Pieces
In one impulsive moment the summer before they leave for college, overachievers Scarlett and David plunge into an irresistible swirl of romance, particle physics, and questionable decisions. Moving between the present and the past, this is the story of a grounded girl who's pulled into a lightning-strike romance with an electric-charged boy, and the enormity of the aftermath.
Scarlett and David have known each other all their lives in small-town Colorado, where David is just another mountain in the background, until, one day, he is suddenly so much more than part of the scenery. David is magnetic, spontaneous, a gravitational force. And Scarlett, pragmatic, wry, eye on the future, welcomes the pull he has on her even as she resists it. Drawn to his wild energy, to the relief she feels in throwing off the weight of everyone’s expectations, Scarlett still can’t ignore the tug of her own hopes and ambitions, while David struggles between his feelings for her, which might be deeper than either of them will admit, and his own destructive impulses.
Heartbreaking, hopeful, and unflinchingly honest, this is a deeply moving account of a girl dealing with grief and guilt, and learning to reconcile who she thinks she needs to be with the person she’s been all along. It’s an aching, transporting reminder that between the past that shapes us and the future ahead, we have only the present to forgive ourselves and forge ahead.
"Deeply authentic . . . Marvelously complex . . . Readers shouldn't miss [it]" —Kirkus (starred review)
"Mystery . . . Heartbreak . . . Hope . . . Readers will not be able to put this one down." —SLJ
"Vivid" —Seventeen.com
"You'll speed read through [it]" —PopSugar
"John Green-like, intelligent and peppered with witty repartee" —Booklist
"A story you won't forget." —Huntley Fitzpatrick, author of My Life Next Door
"Heartbreaking, exquisitely crafted" —Estelle Laure, author of This Raging Light
"A complex, compassionately written love story" —PW
"A definite purchase and must read." —VOYA
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“Narrator Annie Q’s voice breathes life into the characters of this YA debut. The main character, Scarlett, jumps between events…With the nonlinear plot, it would be easy for listeners to lose track of the narrative thread, but guided by Annie Q’s use of inflection and tone to distinguish Scarlett at various points in time, the audience is never questioning where they are in the story or how all the pieces fall together.”
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A daring, inventive story about love and loss and longing, reminding us that every choice can be a new chance. A dazzling, not-to-be-missed debut.
— Kathleen Glasgow, author of Girl in PiecesYou'll speed read through [it].
— PopSugarPlot twists and surprising emotional connections . . . John Green–like, intelligent and peppered with witty repartee. Recommended.
— BooklistReal relationships, timeless loss, and a story you won’t forget.
— Huntley Fitzpatrick, author of My Life Next Door"Vivid.
— Seventeen.com★ "Grief, addiction, first loves, and traveling an unplanned road are among the many themes explored in this debut novel. . . . Heartfelt yet often sardonic . . . deeply authentic [and] marvelously complex. [A] smart, poignant story [that] readers shouldn't miss.
— Kirkus (starred review)Mystery . . . Heartbreak . . . Hope . . . Readers will not be able to put this one down.
— SLJA complex, compassionately written love story.
— Publishers Weekly“Time is relative in this unique blend of romance and drama. . . . A definite purchase and must read.
— VOYA“This heartbreaking, exquisitely crafted story captures the moments of intersection between choice and regret, the circular nature of grief, and everything that is nuanced about being a person.
— Estelle Laure, author of This Raging Light"YA literature, some say, is about the moments when one state of being changes to another. In its structure and its story, As Many Nows as I Can Get is a perfect example of this sometimes bumpy, sometimes poignant transition.Be the first to write a review about this audiobook!
Shana Youngdahl is a poet, professor, and fiction writer. She holds a BA degree from Mills College and an MFA in poetry from the University of Minnesota. She teaches writing at the University of Maine-Farmington and co-directs the Longfellow Mountains Young Writers Workshop.
Adenrele Ojo is an actress, dancer, and audiobook narrator, winner of over a dozen Earphones Awards and the prestigious Audie Award for best narration in 2018. She made her on-screen debut in My Little Girl, starring Jennifer Lopez, and has since starred in several other films. She has also performed extensively with the Philadelphia Dance Company. As the daughter of John E. Allen, Jr., founder and artistic director of Freedom Theatre, the oldest African American theater in Pennsylvania, is no stranger to the stage. In 2010 she performed in the Fountain Theatre’s production of The Ballad of Emmett Till, which won the 2010 LA Stage Alliance Ovation Award and the Los Angeles Drama Critics Award for Best Ensemble. Other plays include August Wilson’s Jitney and Freedom Theatre’s own Black Nativity, where she played Mary.