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Author: Marya Hornbacher Narrator: Tavia Gilbert Publisher: Blackstone Publishing Format: Unabridged Audiobook Delivery: Instant Download Audio Length: Release Date: May 2008 ISBN: 9781455189809
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When Marya Hornbacher published her acclaimed first book, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia, she did not yet have the piece of shattering knowledge that would finally make sense of the chaos of her life: the underlying reason for her distress. At age twenty-four, Hornbacher was diagnosed with type I rapid-cycling bipolar disorder, the most severe form of the condition there is.

In her wry and utterly self-revealing style, Hornbacher tells her new story in Madness. Through scenes of astonishing visceral and emotional power, she takes us inside her own desperate attempts to counteract violently careening mood swings by self-starvation, substance abuse, numbing sex, and self-mutilation. Her brave and heart-stopping memoir details her fight up from madness and describes what it is like to live in a difficult, sometimes beautiful life and marriage when the bipolar tendency always beckons.

Millions of people in America today are struggling with a variety of disorders that may disguise their bipolar disease. Marya Hornbacher’s fiercely self-aware portrait revolutionizes our understanding of this all-too-common, all-too-misunderstood disorder.

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  • “Hornbacher, who detailed her struggle with bulimia and anorexia in Wasted, now shares the story of her lifelong battle with mental illness, finally diagnosed as rapid cycling type 1 bipolar disorder...Hornbacher ends on a cautiously optimistic note—she knows she’ll never lead a normal life, but maybe she could live with the life she does have...Hornbacher will touch a nerve with readers struggling to cope with mental illness.”

    Publisher's Weekly

  • “[She] tiptoes along the same high wire as Plath, Lowell, Woolf…Her talent has created a third self, an appealing, rueful narrator who can look back on three decades of manic-depressive illness, much of it untreated, and spin a story that is almost impossible to put down.”

    New York Times

  • “Hooks readers from the start…As [Hornbacher] whips around this rollercoaster ride, her unflinching style keeps us firmly seated beside her.”


  • “Hornbacher’s testimony grabs and doesn’t let go through episode after episode of bulimia, substance abuse, and promiscuity...With cutting perception and skill, she makes palpable not only madness’ losses but the things gained as well.”


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  • 3 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 5 Teresa | 2/15/2014

    " I read this book fairly quickly, at least for me, in order to get through it. I had to be hospitalized for two episodes that I had, but my experience, while some descriptions of things such as feeling like hearing people as though we were underwater were relatable, are nothing as intense and extreme and self-destructive as Hornbacher's. I'm sure this is an accurate picture of her bipolar life, and she shares it completely. It's a terrible disorder, and it was terrible to read about it, but I'm glad she wrote it. There's lots of brain research going on these days, so maybe one of these days a cure will be found. "

  • 3 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 5 Terry | 2/12/2014

    " I'm a big fan of "Wasted" so I was interested in reading "Madness" because I think she's a great writer. I think this book is valuable because it is a very honest picture of living with a mental illness. Many memoirs, especially ones that deal with depression and/or eating disorders and/or dysfunctional families, sort of (sometimes accidentally, I'm sure) romanticize mental illness as a component of creativity--you know, that people who are a little unstable are more creative artists or writers, or that artists/writers are a little more sensitive, live a slightly more unhinged life, than "normal" people do, etc. etc. But this book makes it very clear that mental illness is brutal and unrelenting and devastating and many times those with mental illnesses are their own worst enemy. And so forth. This would be a good book to read for any adolescents (real or prolonged!) who are a little too dreamy about the whole tortured-artist thing. "

  • 5 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 5 Molly | 2/7/2014

    " Loved it. Hated it at first because it was too much like listening to my own thoughts but even louder, and for fun. But she is just a golden writer and story teller and is so easy to follow. Great story. "

  • 1 out of 51 out of 51 out of 51 out of 51 out of 5 Beneath | 2/3/2014

    " No thank you. I couldn't even finish it. It's just her style of writing. "

  • 2 out of 52 out of 52 out of 52 out of 52 out of 5 Esther | 1/29/2014

    " I read Wasted a few years ago, which was really interesting. This book, dealing with her experiences with bipolar is not as good. Going from the timeframe of the book, most if not all of it was written whilst she was really suffering. She talks in the book for example about not sleeping for 3 days and writing non stop during manic phases (so you mean writing this book presumably?) So some chapters are a bit shapeless and page after page of why/what/help/panic/blargh. The bits where she talks about her wild up happy phase blowing all the money she earned from Wasted sales were interesting. Unfortunately for her, this time I borrowed Madness from the library. "

  • 5 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 5 Jeff | 1/21/2014

    " This is a compelling and authentic account of a talented writer's battle with bipolar I disorder, especially describing the symptoms we sufferers of this disorder live through in confusion with ourselves and with our families and friends. Blessed is the day when one finds the right psychiatrist or psychologist or other mental health professional who identifies this illness and can find the right recipe of medications to help stabilize one's mood swings, be they rapid, drastic, mild, or occur in long periods with deep manic and depressive episodes. Thank God for the psychopharmacology we have today and the mental health professionals that today specialize in identifying, treating, and counseling we that suffer from this disorder, as disastrous to the body but as treatable as diabetes. Ms Hornbacher has done a great service to helping to understand bipolar disorder -- it's ramifications if untreated or if one self medicates with narcotics or fbooze, and the benefits when a sufferer complies with her treatment. Ms Hornbacher, by exploring her story of living with bipolar disorder also demystifies this mental illness. It helps to change the paradigm in how we quantify mental illness. We would not say a person was cancer or was heart disease; similarly, a person is not bipolar, a person suffers from bipolar disorder. What better way to learn about bipolar disorder than through the memoir of a person who struggles with it. It's better than a dry psychology text any day. Ms Hornbacher has made this subject visceral and accessible to us. "

  • 5 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 5 Stephen | 1/20/2014

    " Marya Hornbacher is well skilled in accounting her personnel journey's. This is a follow up read to an earlier book as well, which has been well appraised. "

  • 3 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 5 3beekay3 | 12/8/2013

    " I thought it was awfully depressing having gone through a manic episode myself and coming through it. She was very irresponsible with her meds and ruined her life a bit. But a good read nonetheless. "

  • 4 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 5 Allyron | 11/25/2013

    " My sister left Madness for me after her last visit. I finally picked it up this morning and haven't been able to put it down since! "

  • 3 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 5 Ari | 11/12/2013

    " Slightly interesting, although it was almost stressful at times to read. "

  • 4 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 5 Emma | 5/14/2013

    " The one where the eating disorder girl goes on to talk about her experiences with bipolar disorder. "

  • 3 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 5 Alex | 4/2/2013

    " A really vivid view of what it's like to live with bipolar disorder...vivid, troubling, and a bit exhausting. (I'm guessing the prose reflects the experience.) "

  • 4 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 5 Shawna | 2/8/2013

    " Very interesting and educational. It really shows why a person with bipolar disorder behaves the way they do. "

  • 4 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 5 Elizabeth | 9/1/2012

    " Wow. It's pretty much all that I can say about this book. I read the author's first book and thought that things really couldn't have gotten much worse for her, but I have to admit that I was not surprised by her diagnosis. As always, the book was beautifully written. "

  • 4 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 5 M | 7/15/2012

    " A brave, intense book. "

  • 4 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 5 Ronnie | 4/8/2012

    " Good book. Helpful real-life look at Bipolar D/O. "

  • 5 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 5 Kathie | 3/15/2012

    " Wow! scary! "

  • 3 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 5 Judy | 4/19/2011

    " A look at Bipolar that scared me because she writes to experience what she goes through "

  • 3 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 53 out of 5 Stephanie | 4/12/2011

    " So interesting- I am acquainted with a couple of people who are diagnosed bipolar, and after reading this I think I understand them a little better. And am SO grateful to not have that particular cross to bear. "

  • 4 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 54 out of 5 cassie | 3/31/2011

    " This was hard to get through, yet I couldn't put it down. The whole time, I was relieved and worried throughout the book. Relieved that I am NOT that bad, worried because at times I knew exactly what she was talking about. It's honest and to the point about all that this disease can entail. "

  • 5 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 55 out of 5 Ally | 3/22/2011

    " Thank goodness she wrote this book! In so many ways she has told MY story and I was able to pass this along to people so that they may understand me better. Written with utmost honesty and humor. "

About the Author

Marya Hornbacher is the author of the Pulitzer Prize–nominated national bestseller Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia, a book that remains an intensely read classic, and of the acclaimed novel The Center of Winter. An award-winning journalist, she lectures nationally on eating disorders and lives with her husband in Minneapolis.

About the Narrator

Tavia Gilbert is an acclaimed narrator of more than four hundred full-cast and multivoice audiobooks for virtually every publisher in the industry. Named the 2018 Voice of Choice by Booklist magazine, she is also an Audie Award nominee and the recipient of numerous Earphones Awards, a Voice Arts Award, and a Listen-Up Award. With frequent inclusion on best of year and annual top ten lists, she is a trusted and increasingly sought-after actress for work across every genre, from children’s and YA, to literary fiction, nonfiction, and genre fiction. Audible has named her a Genre-Defining Narrator: Master of Memoir, and Library Journal said of her, “as close as you can get to a full-cast narration with a solo voice.” She is a producer, singer, photographer, and a writer, as well as the cofounder of a feminist publishing company, Animal Mineral, with fiction and nonfiction focusing on relationships, love, and identity.